It has been a v. v. v. v. v. v. v. v. v . long long long time  I never come to my blog. Felt this blog so dead. Time files so fast and I am now studying  in poly. It has been the 4th week in poly. And the style of learning is quite different from secondary schools. I still prefer hard copies instead of using laptop and look at the lecture slides. There are so many modules to study and is pretty hard to catch with other students as I doesn't have a maths background compared to most of my classmates in my class. Talking about my class, it feel so sian. But they are humorous sometimes. But.. there are no handsome guys in my class. *Sad* Hahahaha.. Before I went to the orientation, my mind was like thinking that the course I chose was weird so I guess the people in my class will be weird too. But I met a lot of friends in my class, more than I met in secondary school. It is just happy to meet friends in class and have fun ! I feel like I have a lot of things to say since I never blog for so long time. I just got a part time job this year January and I am still working until now. The people I met there are just awesome. I became more talkative working there and somehow boost my confidence level. Although school has started, I just don't bear to quit my job. But I felt a bit tired of going work after my lesson on every Friday.  I met a lot of friends there of course. I even made friends with the chefs and managers there. I am so glad I made friends even with the guys at work because I seldom talk to guys in my school. Sometimes they are just bastards, teasing me all day. Talking to them made me remembered my last crush which made me felt so stupid. Its really hard to be mature when you like someone. I somehow avoided his eye contact and being childish in front of him. If I have done the right choice, things might change in the end. Cause somehow I felt he had the feeling as mine. But  I didn't admit it.  I always feel those guys I crush on will not like me back. I always have no confident in myself. I always envy those girls who are so pretty. Pretty girls always have handsome boyfriends. I always feel that I  don't have the chance at all. Instead, people who crush on me are those I don't like. So pathetic. Andandand I want to go overseas with my friends !!! It will be sooo damn cool !!Hahahaha sorry for being random .